"Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60s. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted."
Have you ever seen those long documentaries or articles on girls who are treated like adults? Those who have to care for their siblings, go out and work, get married at a young age, and take thousands of other responsibilities? When I was 11 years old my mom left out for a party and asked me to baby sit my little sister who at that time was 1 year old. When I look back, this is the first moment where I felt I actually had a large responsibility over someone or something. It was the first time in my life where I felt as if I was not mature enough to do something. Or when I was 12 and I stayed home alone for the first time ever at night, and I would run from one room to another when the sun would hide and darkness would invade my house. Little did I imagine at that age that there were girls, my age, in the world who had tasks to complete which were much more rigorous than mine.
This weekend I watched the movie: "Girl Interrupted". In the movie the main character, Susanna Kaysen, tries to kill herself by swallowing a bottle of aspirins with vodka. Even though she denies that she tried to commit suicide, I believe that she did actually want to die. But the question that constantly circled my mind through out the movie was why a person would try to commit such a terrible action. The answer that I decided upon was that she had her childhood taken from her. That bit of innocence that she had left, her virginity, she lost to a friend of her parents. She had just ended high school, which was a horrible journey for her since she made no friends, and did not get into college. So yeah, maybe she was just a girl interrupted. A girl who's innocence was taken away from her too soon, a girl who did not live life as she should of, a girl who had to mature faster than I did.
I could never picture myself in a scenario other than my own. Never could I think of me being a girl interrupted and having to assume all the responsibilities that comes with it. The fact of thinking about it only causes me to feel chills run down through my spine. Losing my naiveness and my way of living. But what about you, could you be a girl interrupted?
Have you ever seen those long documentaries or articles on girls who are treated like adults? Those who have to care for their siblings, go out and work, get married at a young age, and take thousands of other responsibilities? When I was 11 years old my mom left out for a party and asked me to baby sit my little sister who at that time was 1 year old. When I look back, this is the first moment where I felt I actually had a large responsibility over someone or something. It was the first time in my life where I felt as if I was not mature enough to do something. Or when I was 12 and I stayed home alone for the first time ever at night, and I would run from one room to another when the sun would hide and darkness would invade my house. Little did I imagine at that age that there were girls, my age, in the world who had tasks to complete which were much more rigorous than mine.
This weekend I watched the movie: "Girl Interrupted". In the movie the main character, Susanna Kaysen, tries to kill herself by swallowing a bottle of aspirins with vodka. Even though she denies that she tried to commit suicide, I believe that she did actually want to die. But the question that constantly circled my mind through out the movie was why a person would try to commit such a terrible action. The answer that I decided upon was that she had her childhood taken from her. That bit of innocence that she had left, her virginity, she lost to a friend of her parents. She had just ended high school, which was a horrible journey for her since she made no friends, and did not get into college. So yeah, maybe she was just a girl interrupted. A girl who's innocence was taken away from her too soon, a girl who did not live life as she should of, a girl who had to mature faster than I did.
I could never picture myself in a scenario other than my own. Never could I think of me being a girl interrupted and having to assume all the responsibilities that comes with it. The fact of thinking about it only causes me to feel chills run down through my spine. Losing my naiveness and my way of living. But what about you, could you be a girl interrupted?